8th November 2018
26th November 2015
‘Full Circle’
It was April when I woke and knew something had changed. I lay in bed and felt it in every inch of my body. It was impossible to explain – there were no signs, no sickness, I just knew.
Read More› 2nd December 2010
For the first time ever, I’m awake to see the sunrise as I fly home from another draining business trip to China. The first glimmers of the dawn are breaking across the horizon, as I stare out from the darkness of my blanket cocoon.
Read More› 12th December 2009
I know that things have sounded very sad recently and I can’t hide it when I feel that way. This week has been one of the hardest I can remember since losing her last year. I’ve been off work and rattling around the house, trying to rest and pull myself together.
Read More› 7th December 2009
Nowadays I find myself hesitate before writing the truth down ….. but I can’t change what this is. Like taking the photos, this is me, my soul, my heart, the things I want to remember, come what may. Tonight, the highs of Wonderland being published are washed away by the loss of her yet again. It’s raining, it hasn’t stopped for what feels like days and my heart is drowning in this swirl of memories.
Read More› 20th May 2009
There are times when I want to write so much in this blog, and then I stop and wonder if its right that I share these thoughts so publicly. I don’t always talk about the day to day people because I want to protect their privacy, or mine… but there are other times when doing this is all that feels right, and it is the only way I can make sense of what is happening.
Read More› 1st March 2009
I messed up, I miss my mum,…. I started writing about China and then I stopped. This is me trying to make it up, trying to get back on track, and so as you can see the opening paragraph starts way back in December 08. Deep breath….. here I go, I’ve been gone a long time ……………….
22nd November 2008
She died on a Sunday; it was Remembrance Sunday, November 9th 2008.
She was 63, and it was only a handful of weeks since her birthday… a birthday I missed, the first one I had ever forgotten since I was born. My life has revolved around her survival for so long, that dates like birthdays had dissolved into the grey matter that was everyday life.
Read More› 21st September 2008
‘Le Jardin De Ma Mere’
To be honest I don’t know where to begin with this diary entry. For so long I have kept silent about what has really been happening in my life, that these pages have become quieter and shorter as the weeks have rolled by.
Read More› 29th April 2008
She has a brain tumour, this is where I will begin…. it’s the only way I know how to start.
Staring at this page there are so many things I need to write, and yet my mind is blank. My head is full of pictures, music, moments I have shared all because of her, and yet I still can’t find the words………..
She is my beginning……. the first page of my book, my guidance, my best friend, my inspiration.
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